Refocus

     Things have been a little tough for me lately.  People's ignorance has been showing more than usual, it seems. I'm just so sick of judgmental assholes and narrow minded people who insist that their small little slice of reality is the only valid viewpoint.  Then of course there's the fake people who don't care about anyone at all...unless you count in the sense of how they can get a quick leg up by taking advantage of someone.  It's really surprising sometimes what people can justify.
     Maybe I'm just hormonal or something.  Or maybe I notice it more b/c I'm @ home all day w/nothing to do.  Facebook seems somehow to just bring the ignorance right out in some people.  The other day I think someone I've met all of twice...that being 5 years ago...tried to insinuate to my fiancée that I am a slut...nice.  I don't even think he really meant it or knew what he was talking about.  He was just pissed off b/c Alex was making some good points against his religious beliefs, so he was fishing for an emotional reaction to make Alex look less credible.  I felt so bad for him, b/c he got really upset.  The guy used to be a very good friend of his when they were younger.  Then he got his soul crushed by some succubus and turned to Christianity...not for light, wisdom, or guidance, but to use it as a crutch to support his own shortcomings and prejudices.  So his comments really struck home w/Alex, who has been trying (in vain) to show his friends that Jesus Christ taught love, compassion, and forgiveness rather than exclusivity and false superiority complexes.  I advised him to turn away from the situation, because they were obviously not trying to have a real theological discussion if they were going to resort to personal attacks in order to throw off his rhythm in defending his point of view.  He tried, but I could tell it was still bothering him, so I suggested he start blogging about his own beliefs.
      I actually just started a separate blog for this purpose as well, and for similar reasons.  One of the people in this little fake Christian clique that some of Alex's friends are a part of is a mutual friend of ours, and we were having a discussion about pantheism in which he completely contradicted himself by saying that God is IN everything but not a PART of everything.  O.o  He also uses the same tactics as his other friend and tried to insinuate that my line of thinking was somehow comparative to me being like Barbie...despite the fact that my arguments were far more eloquent and well-thought out than his partial sentences and numerous self contradictions.  Another obvious attempt to illicit an emotional reaction so that I make myself look bad.  The thing that floors me about this kid is that he can have an entirely normal, rational conversation about this stuff with Alex, or any of his other male friends.  But the second myself or any other female enters the discussion he turns into a belligerent asshole and his arguments dissolve from feeble half assed attempts to make a point into lame accusations.
INTERJECTION:  My cat is so AWESOME!!!  He was just washing his face to the beat of this really chill trip-hop song...lmfao...I'm not even kidding, you could tell he was totally doing it on purpose and jamming out!
     And now I totally can't stay on the previous topic, that was just too cool. :P  Moving on, then.  I am very fortunate that I have other people in my life, like Alex and my mom and my good friends to balance out these douchebags.  I've always thought that life is about balance, and I guess this is a perfect illustration of that.  I don't know what I would have done these past few months without my wonderful family. :) My mom has been especially supportive, and even my grandmother didn't have any criticisms to throw out when they found out I'm pregnant.  Everyone (in my fam @least) is excited with us, and it means so much to me.  I finally feel like I really can call my mom whenever I need her and talk about anything.  I feel bad that I haven't seen my dad in a few months.  He's really excited too, and wants to see us.  I know he plays shows at the Sports Bar down the street, but...haven't really been feeling up for that kind of environment lately.  And, anyway, when we go to his shows we don't really get to see much of him b/c he's on stage.  Guess we'll have to set something up soon.  We're going to have to have a dinner for our parents to all meet each other.  That should be...interesting... :/
     I guess I just need to remember where my priorities are and refocus my energies on the people in my life who really matter and who I know really care, instead of giving so much of my energy to those few who insist on trying to bring me down.  <3